Hoping for a better day tomorrow......

Ok, so as my luck would have it I won't be able to get a gym membership after all :[ So after feeling totally let-down these past two days and really wanting to just scream at the top of my lungs and just say something along the lines of "the heck with it!" I'm feeling a tad bit better.  My totally depressive mood these last two days is due to my recent weight gain, now officially 201 (I haven't been past 200 since I was pregnant) and of course not being able to go to the gym so I could have someone watch my son while I drench myself in sweat didn't help either.  I know it's all excuses and I need to just do it, but I'm having such a hard time that I really thought having that gym membership was going to help me jump start my attitude and get me back on track.  Now I'm just left feeling totally helpless and on the verge of feeling totally hopeless...hopefully tomorrow will be a better day.