Give up or Keep going

It's been a while since my last post  and quite honestly its because I have been debating whether or not to just give this blog up already (I know so so soon)  part of me wants to stop just so that I don't have to continue to embarrass myself by documenting my big fat failure at the moment...but then part of me wants to keep going just in case I do end up succeeding (sometime way into the future) I can look back and see just how much I overcame...but that's IF I get there.  I know I'm super pessimistic right now and quite frankly I'm struggling with staying optimistic:/  I have been trying to monitor what I eat these last couple of days, but as far as exercising well, let's just say it's the last thing on my mind.  I'm feeling pretty "blah" right now but I know tomorrow will be a new day and maybe just maybe I'll feel better.